Finding a little motivation

Finding some motivation has been hard lately. Over the past few weeks sitting at a desk putting the ins and outs of a 8-4:30 shift has been wearing on me. Looking outside at the beautiful Oahu day and feeling stuck in a cubicle can be draining. I'd come home to a house I was too tired to deal with and take out any frustration on poor Tyler. I was moody, irritable and couldn't find the inspiration to get my butt up and doing something. When all I really wanted to do was SOMETHING.

After some convincing from Tyler and grumpy motivation from myself, I finally attended my first CrossFit class. I was super nervous going into it. The ladies outside pretty much told me to be prepared to die and feel in pain but that it would be worth it in the end. That didn't make me feel too much better. I was expecting a gym of meat-heads and big buff ladies and to have me be this little out of shape girl trying to lift something and looking like a fool. But it was actually totally opposite.

Every walk of life was there. Tyler and another guy (besides the owners and coaches) were the only guys that were really in shape. I'm not even going to pretend to lift and squat as much as Tyler...or attempt the pull ups he was doing... but there was big, tall, small, fat, skinny, in shape, out of shape, every walk of life. It was a fairly small class for a Saturday morning and the atmosphere was really nice, everyone was encouraging and positive. I guess it was a good day to start because it was core day and we switched from squats to various ab workouts. After the warm-up the session only took me 12:58 minutes to complete. I was the last of most people to be done but less than 13 minutes and I was done! I felt energized, motivated and inspired.

Two days later I'm still sore. I can't really do a situp and God forbid I gotta take a pee where I have to fall back onto the toilet (still too much of a squatting position that I have to get into to do that...). But it feels GOOD. I feel like this is something different. Every workout will be different. It's short and sweet and to the point. I can get in, get out, get a better body and get on with my life. After doing some homework on CrossFit I'm SO ready to look like all of these people and these success stories. I refuse to be a statistic. On more than one level. But in terms of the "fat America" and the "I have no time to workout" and the "I eat fast food because its easily available" statistics, no thank you. I want to look like the people in the success stories. Tyler and I don't eat too bad as it is, but we decided to cut alcohol out of our diets completely. Hardly any sugar, lean meat (for Tyler. Just the protein in tofu for me), watch the melted cheese and carbs and drink no soda, limit juice and increase water. Eat more sprouted grains, local grown, organic when can and fresh fruit and veggies. On top of Tyler working at Whole Foods already, luckily, we are limiting the amount of times we can eat out and cooking more at home. I'm also stopping eating when I'm full. Not being glutenous and eating whatever is left on my plate.

And in terms of getting healthy and not being a statistic, it shouldn't be that hard to get to. I want to do a pull up and a squat with 45 pounds (which was the min we were supposed to do on Saturday but I did 20). I want to sit down in a bikini and not have to worry about sucking it in. I want to dance and jump and have nothing jiggle. I want a lean, flat stomach and toned legs. I want a butt! I want strong arms and back and no shake comin with them fries. I want to look good in my wedding dress!!

I'm going to buy workout clothes and I'm going to try to go a min of 3 times a week. 4 or 5 if time allows (or I can walk). But I strongly encourage everyone to just TRY. It's so completely different than anything I've ever done before. It hurts but it's so great. So worth it!! So...day 1 down. I don't know measurements but I do know weight. I weigh 128 pounds right now. Heaviest I've been my whole life. I'm ok losing weight, ideal would be about 115. But I would love to gain muscle and definition, that is ideal.

CrossFit! Namaste :)